Some days I feel so lost and confused about my life. Just last week I was in paradise; relaxing on the beach spending time with my family and now it’s back to reality.
It’s back to spending the majority of my days alone. It is not a good feeling. Yes, I made the choice to leave my job but even then I felt alone surrounded by people because I felt so trapped and unhappy. If every single day I can travel I would and one day I will be able to. When I am traveling it feels like my mind is clear and I am able to just enjoy the moment. I owe so much to my husband for his sacrifices that allow me the ability to sort and figure things out.
Now, I first started out on the quest to be an entrepreneur I had the highest hopes and dreams but it is taking me a little longer to progress how I would have liked it too. I totally underestimated the amount of learning and figuring things out I had to do. I went off the success of others failing to realize that they had success and knowledge coming in whereas, I am completely starting from scratch. However, I am in a good place.
I know my life will never be the same because a piece of me will always be missing but I am at peace and it doesn’t hurt as much anymore. It is a process to re-discover yourself after being broken. I give much credit to the new circle I’ve found within my business community. When it is nothing but positive vibes it only rubs off on you. I’ve learned a new meaning to gratitude and appreciation. My view of life has changed. I see so much more to be grateful for that I was blind to previously.
Losing my firstborn was completely crushing but if I hadn’t I would not have been awakened to an issue that is long overdue for discussion and it breaks my heart so many women are suffering in silence when there is no need too but society has this stigma that does not need to exist. Just look at the statistics. 1 in 4 pregnancies ends in a loss. That is pretty alarming statistics. What is even more alarming is that 1 in 8 couples struggle to conceive.
Many times people choose not to discuss what they are going through due to the hurtful speech and remarks others give. Truly, I don’t wish anyone to experience this but it’s life and you have a choice on how you choose to handle what life throws at you.